Why Now?

The cord has been cut.

Saturday I went ahead and cancelled my Xfinity/Comcast account.

For years they were reaming me with a monthly charge well over what a sane person would pay for JUST CABLE TV.

My last bill was over $200.  For just cable TV.

I’ve had a separate service for phone and internet (currently Sonic) forever, and was not interested in their combined packages, with data caps.

The only reason I held on to cable TV for so long?

Dad kept his TV in his bedroom on some religious cable channel all day, even when he wasn’t home.  He may have turned it off when he went to sleep.  Sometimes I heard it through his door when I got up in the morning to get ready for work.

I didn’t want to take that away from him.  I’m not sure if that same channel was available on the cable packages through AT&T or Sonic, or even over the air.

So yeah.

It’s weird seeing the empty spaces near the TVs, where a DVR box used to sit.

The 50s

1 year, 3 months, and 5 days after I was born, my ‘twin’ arrived.

Maria Saguisag-Sid is (this is my fourth try) one of the most extraordinary people I know.

She grew up with two older brothers who always decided what to watch on TV, which may explain her attraction to the sports world (Rob) and the geek world (me).

In middle school I was known as “Maria’s brother”, while in high school she was known as “Chris’ sister”.  It was weird.

In college we were compared to Brandon and Brenda from Beverly Hills 90210.  After college we were compared to Ross and Monica on Friends.

Maria met her best friend and life partner in high school.  They eventually married and raised a pair of fantastic kids.

Maria is the rock among my siblings and me.  She’s shown that recently with her handling of all matters and details following our Dad’s death.

Happy 50th, Maria!  Luv ya lots!

Toilet Repair

Dear Dad,

I managed to replace the fill valve on the downstairs toilet.  It doesn’t appear to leak anymore, and is silent again.

I found your tools in the same place that you stored them when you first showed me how to do home plumbing repairs.

I couldn’t have done this without your guidance, all those years ago.

I hope I did it right by you.

Thanks, Dad.

I love you and miss you.

Catharsis

20 minutes ago:

Brain: Do it.
Heart: No, Chris, it’s too painful!
Brain: He must.  It will help him.
Heart: You’re right, dammit.

I went to youtube.com and played the ending to Field of Dreams.

It hurt.  I ugly cried for a good while.  3 minutes?  5?  Lost track of time.

I love you, Dad.  I miss you.

I’m probably not going to watch this movie again for a while.

Loss

Losing a parent is tough.  I learned that 14 years ago when Mom passed away.

It doesn’t get any easier the second time.

We lost Dad yesterday.

Details will follow, regarding services.

For now, your thoughts and prayers for my siblings, and his, are appreciated.

I Don’t Want To Grow Up…

What can I say about Toys R Us closing that hasn’t already been said?

Like many folks, it’s a place where I grew up.

It’s the place where I grew up.

The Colma location was where my parents took us for birthday and Christmas gifts, and the occasional time for doing a good thing.

It’s where my friends and I would stop on road trips, in our 20s and 30s, and for me, through my 50s.

It’s where I think we got our first home computer, the ViC-20.

The big Space: 1999 Eagle One Transport, a Christmas gift.

Micronauts.

Most of the Star Wars toys that I ever owned, including the Millennium Falcon that my parents bought for me after telling me they would if I cleaned the house, which I did from top to bottom, to their shock, er, surprise that same day when they got home from work.

Great Mazinga, a birthday purchase after my godmother gave me money in my birthday card. I saw a $20 bill held by a paper clip attached to the card, and when I handed the clipped money to the cashier, she handed a second $20 bill back to me, along with the rest of my change. Talk about surprised, that was more money than I ever had, prior to getting and saving allowance from my parents.

The first Jeff Gordon die cast car that I owned, still sitting in my workstation at the office.

Midnight release of toys for the Star Wars prequels, I think I went to all three of those. They had them for the last three recent Star Wars films.

G.i. Joes and other action figures, from Megos to Marvel Legends.

Fisher-Price Little People.

Plastic model kits.

Estes Rockets, which my Dad was reluctant to let me get into, until he saw a launch at Candlestick Park when my brother was learning how to drive and park. Dad took me to Toys R Us to pick up the Estes Rockets X-15 starter kit, later that day.

I’m not 100% sure it’s where I got the Six Million Dollar Man, or the first Battlestar Galactica toys, or even various early Star Trek toys.

I do recall getting the 12″ Indiana Jones figure there in 1981, but never seeing the original 3.75″ Indy figures.

And the last thing I got from Toys R Us?

The Infinity Gauntlet.

With time I could go on and on about other items acquired from TRU over the years, but I won’t.

I’ll just say that I’ll be sad when the stores close. But the memories will stay with me.

I’m a Toys R Us kid. And I always will be.

Weekend Recap

Finished reading “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck”.

Picked up the Infinity Gauntlet (prop).

Sorted/organized Massive Darkness and Rising Sun.

Got a couple of Infinity War Pop! figures from my sister.

Watched baseball on TV.

Continued the 1967 San Francisco Giants season replay.

Did my taxes.

Watched the Oscars.

Finished reading “The War of Jokes and Riddles”.